Back with my unstable mind

Maybe you’ll listen this time

Uncomfortable thoughts, I just push them all down

Turn my frown around, before you even ask

I walk around with a smile, that’s a handsome mask

I keep a clean whip because my mind is a mess

I'm trying to keep it all together

Thinking that every obstacle is a test

Every day I’m working on me

All the negative feelings, I try my best to arrest it

Positive vibes, I’m wearing it around like a necklace

I take a sigh before I take my shot

Because I have been going through a lot

Thoughts beating like some 12’s

Want to know what's on my mind I must say beware

I have to separate myself from the bullshit,

just know that i wish you well

Bad as they want it, they can't handle the truth, I swear

That's why a lot of things go unsaid

Over time you’re fed up

The next time you hear the truth is when someone pops their top and blows up

I had to reevaluate my thought and think twice Sometimes it's hard being the bigger person and doing what right

Trying to make everyone happy leads to sleepless nights

I just want to pack my bag and take a flight

Just to get away

Just to clear my head

I’ll be back

With a heart filled with hope

Like maybe things have changed

Maybe it’ll be okay

Or maybe I’ll see the same shit that made me run away

Now put my visual on loop

If you stare hard then you’ll see you

If you stare harder then you see the truth

Shit always feels the same no matter what you do

I gave it my all

It's about time that I chose me

And at the end of the day, it's always

L O V E

I need some time to tune my energy,

Until I'm back to me

I guess we both can agree on that

Surrounded by fake smiles and open hands

Don’t let them find out you have a heart

They’ll leave your ass burnt out

and your emotions turned out

The realization that they're misusing the love I spread

They said I was tripping

So maybe it's all in my head

Manipulation is what I hear in every conversation

I close my eyes, I'm heading to a peaceful destination

Because I'm losing patience

Before I spaz out

I’m going to give it some distance

Because this isn’t me

Outside I'm like fuck it

Inside I'm begging, listen, please

I care so much because of love

But what am I supposed to do

when I feel like I’m drowning and I look above

and there’s no one to rescue me

So I close my eyes

And hit an introvert dive

I have a big ass heart

So my love I hide

Been going through some shit for a long time

Hearing my story would probably make you wanna cry

No lie

My dad was like “you need to reach out”

But they’re not reaching for me

So I’m like why try

He told me not to bend backward for no one

and I’m standing on that

If they have a problem with it, then I’m standing on their neck

With all due respect

I’m speaking about how I’m feeling

With no smile

So they consider me the villain

I have been shuffling these emotions for a while

You’re going to have to show me something different

Til then this is how I’m living

A relationship is only as good as the energy that it’s given

So I'm going to back and get in tune with my visions

Subconsciously thinking that one day you’ll do more than listen

You’ll understand